10 dirty little secrets no one but you know about

1. I weigh 140lbs.
2. My thighs touch.
3. I throw up in the public bathroom downstairs(at4am) after eating a shit ton of food.
4. I only do it in the public bathroom because no one can hear me crying there. 
5. I am thinking about cutting myself because I ate and couldn't get it all out.
6. I haven't eaten before this in almost 4 days. 
7. I am obsessed with food, I think about it 24/7. 
8. I had a dream last night that I was eating a box of cookies, an entire box of cookies. I woke up scared.
9. My heart hurts really bad. Is it because of shoving so many calories into my body or is it because I took so many out?
10. I'm hungry.