who am i

I've been searching for something for six years
I've been through a lot, shed so many tears.
I want to know. I need to know,
Who am I? Where do I go?
In retrospect to the world I am just a spec
A spec floating around in this disgusting wreck
Who am I? I don't know where I belong
I wish I was brave, bold, strong.
Who am I? A troubled teen?
I'm lost, confused. The sadness unseen.
I've been living my life as someone fake.
Sometimes I just need a fucking break.
A break from the fake smiles and cheerful eyes.
I just want to live in my demise.
Who am I? why am I here?
I'm tired of not shedding a tear.
I live through Ana. I am her currently.
I just wish I could be me.
I want to be a person defined.
I don't want my like to be outlined,
The unanswered question haunts my dreams.
It's tough, as easy as it seems.
Who am I?
Who am I and why?